Nothing costs .99 / not even The 99 / on Wilshire at Fairfax / that prior to being a 99 / was Marinello Beauty School offering press / & curl / and the try-ons / at Payless / sold styles / made in Brazil / then China / before going the way of K-Mart / Still .99 is not even a dollar / yet casi / and we bought handfuls / carts full / before gas soared / in the Golden State / to 7 dollars / for the good of empire
Author: redict239
From Memoir to Play? Almost
The International Memoir Writers Association has a wonderful annual Memoir Showcase competition.
They invite memoir writers to submit a true story of five pages or less, and their judges select pieces that will be adapted as a drama and performed live on stage. This year was the twelfth year of the competition.
I submitted Chapter 2, “Grits,” from my hybrid memoir manuscript When I Was a Bilingual Writer Birthed by Black L.A. (Unsolicited Press, 2027)
I was elated to be included in the thirty-two honorable mentions after submitting my work. A select group of twenty-one other pieces will be published. And nine writers won the esteemed prize that results in a play adaptation.
My submission, “Grits,” was originally published last year in the literary magazine A Gathering Together. It’s a very manageable 1068 words; make sure you read it.
Consider submitting to the Memoir Showcase competition next year!
Last Night Me Dormí Très Bien
Last night me dormí très bien / and the comeback / of dawn / alba-ing / as if never disappeared / into the silence surrounding our forebears / sold into Southern oblivion / African stories / of refugees, asylum seekers / sequestered / twenty twenty-six / off-shored like production / replicating capital / out of airplane wings / motors / breath / and the comeback / hitting an F5 for ten seconds / from Céline Dion / Behold the Titanic / on the ocean floor / whispering as if an ancestor
Skin: Peel;
Sever finger; dispatch to Haiti
(why: revolution)
Partition nose; route to Manzanar
(why: collaboration)
Excise mouth; forward to Louisiana
(why: rabble rousing)
Remove scalp; send to Oklahoma
(why: gold)
Carve cheek; transmit to El Salvador
(why: insurrection)
Pluck questioning eyebrow; sail towards Liberia
(why: Black)
Sliver neck; return to Mexico
(why: land)
Chop cotton hand; transfer to Alabama
(why: inheritance)
Disjoin kneecap; route to China
(why: un-American)
Extract kidney; transmit to Guatemala
(why: Indio/India/Indie)
Slit liver; transmit to Central African Republic
(why: Whatever)
Pierce heart; return to sender
(why: Why?)
Skin: Peel;
A Poem? by Audrey Shipp
They’re Killing Everything This Year
They’re killing everything this year / the plants and rocks / the detours / the roundabouts / and the stairways / to heaven / They’re killing the sand particles / that lead to the beach / the clouds / hovering overhead / and the dreams of distant shores / on the other side / the baby / dolls & / the mother / of pearl / They’re killing the invisible steps / of shoelaces / and the paths we run to get away / the good air / and the smoke / even father / time / They’re killing all the letters / in the alphabet / from a to i / starting with the beginning / of this sentence / and ending with the / butt / of this thought
Rain Immigrated to My Window
Rain immigrated to my window / like splish & splash / not forced removal / not even enslavement / migrated as cloud / as water / not ice / moved from Mexico / danced from Guatemala / leap-yeared from Ghana / brought believability / brought besos and humidity / turned tomorrow into a phrase: / Quizás. / Questioned borders / and other b-words.
Why I Didn’t Publish my Bilingual and Multilingual Poetry
I wrote bilingual poetry after my African American mother and her African American friend, Kathy, drove adolescent me from Guadalajara, Mexico to Durango, Durango for summer school.
I wrote poetry after my step granddad filled my ears with the improvisational jazz of Dexter Gordon and Miles Davis.
I wrote multilingual poetry after my failed attempt at foreign exile left words lingering in French.
I wrote bilingual poetry during the revolutionary years of Central America when U.S. counterrevolution left the cars in L.A.’s Koreatown with bumper stickers shouting Honduras, Nicaragua, El Salvador, and Guatemala.
I wrote multilingual poetry the year Luis Enrique Mejía Godoy gave his concert for peace in Bovard Auditorium at USC.
And the years Eddie Santiago, Lalo Rodriguez, and el Gran Combo de Puerto Rico played at Hollywood Palladium.
And the year J. California Cooper, Paule Marshall, Sonia Sanchez, Michelle T. Clinton, Wanda Coleman, and Sherely Ann Williams read their poetry at California Afro-American Museum.
And then I stopped.
I put my poetry in a file folder and kept it there.
While I read middle school books.
While I conjugated verbs at night school with adult students in ESL.
While I graded high school essays.
While I raised kids.
While I wrote a novella and submitted it (unsuccessfully).
While I mastered creative nonfiction.
While I founded a literary magazine and published the poems of other writers.
While I wrote a memoir about writing bilingual and multilingual poetry.
And then it dawned on me – except for three poems I’d published at Arte Público Press, my poems were unpublished.
Why did I not publish my poetry during so many years?
Because it never occurred to me.
I hope that you will read Poetry, Poesía, Poésie in AfroDiaspora. Perhaps it’s because I wrote these poems during years of social crisis that their themes ring as if written today. I enjoyed going back and editing them. I think you will enjoy the read. And after reading, please leave a review on Goodreads.
How to Answer a Question About Genocide (a stutter poem)
Um…maybe / Darfur (Sudan) / perhaps, not sure / Bosnia / well…and / Armenia / possibly…hmm / Biafra (Nigeria) / sometimes…well / Bangladesh / is this mic on? / Amerindian / could have been / East Timor / mic check…mic check / Haiti / hmm…let me see / Ukraine / there is that one… / Gaza / but not certain… / Lebanon… / well, it might … / The Middle Passage… / we seem to have / Guatemala / our notes have… / The Holocaust / can’t really detect… / Rwanda / Let me get back to you… / Cambodia / mic check… / Congo / Technology these days…
Because I Went to Paris for Books
Paris, more than anything else, was a book haul. So much so, that I had to buy the small, hot pink rolling luggage at the baggage shop on Rue de Rennes for 20 euros – an excellent price considering a similar bag at the more touristy Gare Montparnasse was 10 euros more.
But the hot pink bag is the end of the story. The beginning starts on my direct flight from Los Angeles to Paris where I finally finished the novel Pedro Páramo by Mexican author Juan Rulfo. I promised myself I would finish Rulfo’s novel to rectify the failure of not doing so during my travels from Los Angeles to Guadalajara in December 2025. Back then, I was going to the FIL – Feria Internacional del Libro. I arrived in Guadalajara, checked in to my hotel, but fell ill, and had to end my trip and return to L.A.
So, in March 2026, my goal was the Salon du Livre Africain de Paris that I’d first learned about three years prior. And during those three years, I had promised myself I’d resuscitate my college French by listening to language lessons and stories on audiobook. Just as reading Pedro Páramo was my attempt to make things right vis a vis the novel I had to read, this trip to France was an attempt to make amends for my last visit to Paris. Despite being in London, four years ago, I hadn’t been in Paris for decades. At that time, I’d come as a recent college graduate with illusions of settling in the city for what the youthful mind deems forever. My naïve idea was to go into literary exile in the city of light. My role model at the time was the international icon Anaïs Nin who looms large over women writers. But if I had been driven by Euro-American dreams in my early twenties, this time I was coming to Paris intentionally focused on Black Paris which was the aspect of the city that completely caught me off guard and absorbed my attention many years ago.
No sooner than I’d read the last page of Pedro Páramo and gotten a decent night’s sleep at my Parisian hotel, I was off to the two bookstores I’d researched — Présence Africain and L’Harmattan Internationale both located on Rue des Écoles, near Sorbonne University. After studying the expanse and grandeur of the university, I took photos, recorded videos, and tried to excavate this specific structure from my memory. I’d enrolled in French classes at the Sorbonne way back when. But was this where I’d studied? Although I remember the inside of the classrooms, the exterior of the building didn’t really strike a chord.
Inside Présence Africain, I bought two books and the English-language magazine Black Renaissance Noire – a 2006 edition published at New York University. I chose this copy because the names of authors Victor Hernández Cruz and Ntozake Shange blared out to me from the glossy cover. When I opened it, I saw an editorial board that included Kamau Brathwaite, Maryse Conde, Angela Y. Davis, Robin D.G. Kelley, Paula Marshall, and Ngũgĩ wa Thiong’o.
Just across the street, I entered the two-story curator’s dream that is L’Harmattan Internationale Bookstore. Here the African book section is arranged by each individual country. I came upon a large selection of African American writing translated into French, a section of Latin American literature in the original Spanish, and huge sections on the Middle East and Asia.
With one day to go before the Salon du Livre, I spent time the next afternoon – a Friday, at about 6pm — walking along the lower banks of the Seine which was packed with young people sitting along the river conversing, eating, drinking, and listening to music. At street level, I bought two books and a newspaper. The newspaper was my gem purchase since it was Le Monde. During my L.A. youth, I religiously read the international version of the Manchester Guardian Weekly which back then also contained Le Monde in translation and The Washington Post.
On Saturday and Sunday, with crossbody handbag on my shoulder and backpack strapped on, I walked from my hotel on Rue de Rennes to the Boulanger Paris Montparnasse for my daily croissant. The buttery crispiness of the croissant sealed the deal on what a croissant should taste like. From there, I headed directly to Hotel de L’Industrie on Saint-Germain-des-Près for the Salon du Livre which was a rendezvous of literary craft and exploration. Over the two days, I listened to panels on the topics of African youth, women and the environment, Angolan writing, writing in Madagascar/Reúnion, and Afro-Caribbean writing. Honestly, sometimes the French went over my head; but I enjoyed the immersive language experience. As a teacher of English as a second language, I welcomed the challenge; and I was happy to see the level of my aural comprehension increase daily.
The actual bookfair for the salon was down Boulevard Saint-Germain at the Refectoire des Cordeliers. I went early on Sunday, a few minutes after opening, since my attempt to go on Saturday afternoon was a lesson on just how jampacked this event could be. Early Sunday, I experienced the joy and jouissance of African fabrics adorning the tables, colorful book covers, men and women in both African and Western garb, and excited children in strollers. I walked the circumference of the bookfair three times just to take it all in and engrave it into my memory. I bought three books, all of them special for their own reason. The standout text is the novel Un Prisonnier Sans Étoile because I was able to meet author Sully Quay, and she autographed my copy of the book.
A bookstore on Boulevard Montparnasse was not on my itinerary. I was hunting for food with my left shoulder aching from the crossbody and my shoulders weighed down by the backpack. As I questioned whether this was the same boulevard I’d walked to reach my youth hostel years ago, I stumbled upon the literary treasures within the sun-filled space of Librairie Tschann. There, I discovered a large array of great novels, poetry books, and bright yellow volumes on the social sciences. I bought four books, and my treasure purchase is Congre – a 300-page book of poetry by the Congre Poetry Collective. This book is my opportunity to enter the world of contemporary French poetry since my existing collection at home in L.A. is a bit dated.
My last day in Paris, I went to the American Library and spent four hours reading Un Feminisme Décolonial by French political scientist and historian Françoise Vergès. I appreciate how Vergès looks at decolonialism from the perspective of lived experience in France and Réunion. On the eleven-hour flight back to Los Angeles, I continued reading this volume as I squirmed every so often in my stiff seat trying to ease a tired back and a left foot determined to go numb during those intervals they longed for movement.
During the last few hours of the plane, I finally stopped reading. I was sure sleep would come. But that never happened; and by the time my large, pastel purple suitcase and the tiny, hot pink luggage came bouncing around the luggage carousel at LAX, I’d been awake twenty-two hours. By then, I longed for the good night’s sleep befitting an exhausted literary connoisseur with insatiable international aspirations.
Publishing On My Mind
The end of February finds me with publishing on my mind.
I feel fortunate and excited because my hybrid memoir manuscript WHEN I WAS A BILINGUAL WRITER BIRTHED BY BLACK L.A. found a home with Unsolicited Press. I decided to go the un-agented route due to the difficulties in publishing memoir for those of us who are not celebrities. I submitted to approximately thirty small publishers during a query and submission process that was challenging, but that also grew easier the more I practiced it. By the time I made the twentieth query, I had become a bit of an expert on the query letter.
I described my query process in an essay that was published this month on the Jane Friedman blog. The title of the essay is “How I Navigated My Way to a Memoir Deal from a Small Publisher.” Non-celebrity memoir is the most difficult genre in which to get published, but I was able to secure a deal because I had learned so much from other writers in the writing community. Make sure you read my essay for the details.
Also, regarding publishing, once I secured my contract to publish my memoir, I realized there was a bit of a vacuum in my writing history. The title of my memoir refers to my bilingual poetry, but in reality, I’d only published three of my bilingual and multilingual poems back in 1991 in Americas Review published by Arte Publico Press. The rest of my poems I’d guarded in file folders for years.
So, I’m currently in the process of self-publishing those poems now. It’s actually a fun and exciting process because I get to edit my poetic voice from over thirty years ago. And the process of finding a book cover artist and helping to design the cover has been awesome!
With this message, I hope to communicate the importance of never giving up. Don’t give up if you have to submit to over thirty publishers. And don’t give up if it seems daunting to publish writing from over thirty years ago. Positive persistence makes us human! And it’s contagious.