Why I Didn’t Publish my Bilingual and Multilingual Poetry

I wrote bilingual poetry after my African American mother and her African American friend, Kathy, drove adolescent me from Guadalajara, Mexico to Durango, Durango for summer school.

I wrote poetry after my step granddad filled my ears with the improvisational jazz of Dexter Gordon and Miles Davis.

I wrote multilingual poetry after my failed attempt at foreign exile left words lingering in French.

I wrote bilingual poetry during the revolutionary years of Central America when U.S. counterrevolution left the cars in L.A.’s Koreatown with bumper stickers shouting Honduras, Nicaragua, El Salvador, and Guatemala.

I wrote multilingual poetry the year Luis Enrique Mejía Godoy gave his concert for peace in Bovard Auditorium at USC.

And the years Eddie Santiago, Lalo Rodriguez, and el Gran Combo de Puerto Rico played at Hollywood Palladium.

And the year J. California Cooper, Paule Marshall, Sonia Sanchez, Michelle T. Clinton, Wanda Coleman, and Sherely Ann Williams read their poetry at California Afro-American Museum.

And then I stopped.

I put my poetry in a file folder and kept it there.

While I read middle school books.

While I conjugated verbs at night school with adult students in ESL.

While I graded high school essays.

While I raised kids.

While I wrote a novella and submitted it (unsuccessfully).

While I mastered creative nonfiction.

While I founded a literary magazine and published the poems of other writers.

While I wrote a memoir about writing bilingual and multilingual poetry.

 And then it dawned on me – except for three poems I’d published at Arte Público Press, my poems were unpublished.

Why did I not publish my poetry during so many years?

Because it never occurred to me.

I hope that you will read Poetry, Poesía, Poésie in AfroDiaspora. Perhaps it’s because I wrote these poems during years of social crisis that their themes ring as if written today. I enjoyed going back and editing them. I think you will enjoy the read. And after reading, please leave a review on Goodreads.

Publishing On My Mind

The end of February finds me with publishing on my mind.

I feel fortunate and excited because my hybrid memoir manuscript WHEN I WAS A BILINGUAL WRITER BIRTHED BY BLACK L.A. found a home with Unsolicited Press. I decided to go the un-agented route due to the difficulties in publishing memoir for those of us who are not celebrities. I submitted to approximately thirty small publishers during a query and submission process that was challenging, but that also grew easier the more I practiced it. By the time I made the twentieth query, I had become a bit of an expert on the query letter.

I described my query process in an essay that was published this month on the Jane Friedman blog. The title of the essay is “How I Navigated My Way to a Memoir Deal from a Small Publisher.” Non-celebrity memoir is the most difficult genre in which to get published, but I was able to secure a deal because I had learned so much from other writers in the writing community. Make sure you read my essay for the details.

Also, regarding publishing, once I secured my contract to publish my memoir, I realized there was a bit of a vacuum in my writing history. The title of my memoir refers to my bilingual poetry, but in reality, I’d only published three of my bilingual and multilingual poems back in 1991 in Americas Review published by Arte Publico Press. The rest of my poems I’d guarded in file folders for years.

So, I’m currently in the process of self-publishing those poems now. It’s actually a fun and exciting process because I get to edit my poetic voice from over thirty years ago. And the process of finding a book cover artist and helping to design the cover has been awesome!


With this message, I hope to communicate the importance of never giving up. Don’t give up if you have to submit to over thirty publishers. And don’t give up if it seems daunting to publish writing from over thirty years ago. Positive persistence makes us human! And it’s contagious.